• I Had A Miscarriage 19 Years Ago, And I'm Still Grieving

    2 monthes ago - By Scary Mommy

    Trigger warning: miscarriage and stillbirth
    Nineteen years ago, I bought a down comforter and yellow duvet cover. I wanted my bedroom to be bright, hypocritically cheery even, so that when I came home from the hospital after the scheduled induction, the natural light and yellow accents might help me get out of bed in the morning.
    Natural light. Such a silly thing to focus on, but that's how I got through that day. I was angry. I was scared. I hated myself. I wanted to die.
    Nineteen.
    The number of weeks I was pregnant. Roughly the number of hours that passed from finding out my baby died in...
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